Archive for ◊ May, 2005 ◊

Author: VSC
• Monday, May 23rd, 2005

My current job seeking routine includes weekly calls to the temp agencies I’m hoping to work with. Aerotek gets its call on Friday, and Kelly gets its call on Thursday. Live people answer the phone at Kelly Scientific, so while I may not be able to speak with my Assigned Kelly Representative (TM), I am at least able to speak with a human being so that I know that the office is still in existence, and hasn’t blown up over the last week or so. (It could happen..) The guys at Aerotek gave me direct numbers, so all I ever get is their voice mail. Neither of them has EVER actually answered his phone when I call them. I never did hear from Aerotek on Friday, and Kelly still hadn’t gotten back to me about the kitty litter job, so I spent the weekend being sad because one job hadn’t panned out, and my other temp company had probably blown up.

But alas, it was not to be. While I still haven’t heard about the Kitty Litter position, I did finally hear from Aerotek. They don’t have anything to throw my resume at right now. *sigh*

I wasn’t pleased by hearing this for obvious reasons. It’s hard to get a job when there’s nothing for them to send a resume to.

And as I sat there, a bit of Zen philosophy came to me; Freedom is found in the absence of desire. Desire leads only to pain and suffering. Or maybe that’s a Yoda-ism. I do know that the heart of Zen practice is the art of non-attachment, something I do not excel at. But maybe it’s time to learn. Because every bit of news about a possible job or lack there-of throws me on an emotional roller coaster ride.

When Monacita came home, I told her about my Zen philosophy. She watched me with an odd look on her face. When I stopped explaining, she continued to stare at me for a minute then said, “I’m sorry.”

I looked at her for a moment.

She followed up with, “Obviously I’ve left you to spend WAY too much time at home lately.”

Zen philosophy? No, thanks….

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Author: VSC
• Monday, May 23rd, 2005

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Just in case a 4 hour erection isn’t long enough…

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Author: VSC
• Saturday, May 21st, 2005

Salmon. It’s what always comes to mind when I think ‘fresh clean scent.’

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• Friday, May 20th, 2005

… my camera takes shit pictures. I say this is fortunate, because of the 5 pictures I took today, I only bothered to send and post one. This is because the others were unintelligible blurs. Like the sign that simply read: Ice Cream and Fresh Sushi.

Yeah.

Well, at least their refridgeration is up to par…

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• Thursday, May 19th, 2005

A rainy day seen Through water speckled glass, Great day for a road trip!

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• Wednesday, May 18th, 2005

Technology, the toys that make me giggle. There is absolutely no reason for this post other than the fact that I just discovered I can send pictures to my blog from my cell phone and have it update for free. I see many poor resolution images in your future :-)

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Author: VSC
• Wednesday, May 18th, 2005

Had the interview yesterday. Still waiting to hear back. I think I’d enjoy the kitty litter job. I hope I get it.

Spent today trapped at home because Joy’s doctor appointment took a lot longer than anticipated. Apparently they ran a whole battery of tests, and it took them about 4 hours longer than they thought that appointment would take. Ricky was pretty upset about the whole thing.. He kept opening the front door to check for them. I think he even went out front to wait for a little while. Joy was so exhausted when she got home she could barely help Araceli get her out of the car and into her wheel chair. Usually she lifts her feet so we can lift her chair into the house, this time Araceli had to lift them for her. So Araceli never made it to work, and I never went anywhere because Araceli can’t get Joy and the wheel chair in the house alone, and I told her I’d be here to help her. And apparently Joy has another doctor’s appt on Friday. Doh!

Still, I’m not upset, I didn’t have anywhere to go today anyway…

Hope I get this job.
I need to get out of the house more.
Otherwise I have too much time to think.

Weasel.

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Author: VSC
• Thursday, May 12th, 2005

Everytime I think that things are starting to settle down, they get weirder.

From my perspective, this started with a missing pug.

I can only imagine where this started from Ricky’s perspective, to say nothing of Araceli’s.

Anyway… yesterday (Wednesday) evening, round about doggy dinner time, I came up one dog short. Polly Prissy Pants was following me around as always, but no matter how loud I called, and no matter where I looked, the Puggy Wonder was absent. This is odd because while he likes his dinner as well as the next dog, his primary motivation is to be around people. Unless there’s a convienent sun beam to nap in, the pug is in whatever room the people are in.

I searched the house, I searched the yard, I searched the garage, I even wandered out to the green belt out back, but there was no pug. I started to panic.

And then I remembered that there was one room in the house I hadn’t touched: Ricky’s.

I went and knocked lightly on the door. I heard nothing, so I knocked a little louder. Still nothing. So I knocked louder still and cracked the door open, and the pug came trotting right over. But, of course, I’d been noticed. And one of the sweetest, nicest voices I’ve ever heard quietly invited me in.

I’ve dubbed Araceli’s mother Joy because she is absolutely the nicest, sweetest person I’ve ever met, and is an absolute joy to talk to. Honest to god, the woman makes me think of that They Might Be Giants song, “She’s An Angel”. We didn’t talk long, I just explained that the pug had been missing, and somehow he’d been trapped in there with them… I think she knew, and didn’t mind. Ricky ignored me through the whole thing. The whole thing was just so surreal. The vibe from Ricky was basically “take the dog and go away”. But the vibe from her was just… I don’t know how to describe it. But being around her is simply a joy.

And, of course, since I was in there, and kind of caught up in the moment, I asked if they needed anything. It just seemed like the polite thing to do. Joy was adament that they were fine, so I took the dogs and closed the door behind me.

Later that evening, Rita invited me to dinner at the Cat Ranch, and I put the incident out of my head. I stayed late, and got home at about 4 AM.

It kind of hurt when Monacita’s alarm went off 4 hours later, but I was well on my way to going back to sleep when there was a knock on the door. It took me a moment to figure out what was going on… Monacita was still in the shower, plus god knows she doesn’t have to knock to come into her own bedroom. I got up, just barely cognicent of the fact that I was wearing a pair of pajama bottoms and nothing else, and managed to open the door and hide behind it at the same time. On the other side of the door was Ricky. He stood there with one hand holding his stomach, looking weak and groaning. I immediately began to wonder whether or not I should call 911.

After a moment the part of my brain controlling speech kicked in, and I asked him if he was okay. After a moment’s thought, he responded in a wheezing, groaning voice, “Please, I’m starving.”

The man was knocking on my door asking for breakfast.

I know for a fact that Araceli has been fighting with him for the last week about food. He requests things, she makes them, then he refuses to eat them. She’s finally started letting have things he’s not supposed to (he’s diabetic) just because he eats so little of anything that it really doesn’t matter. I know that she keeps trying on the off chance that he’ll finally get around to eating. And I KNOW she didn’t just leave them without fixing them something to eat first.

“Araceli didn’t REALLY leave without feeding you, did she?”

He admitted that she hadn’t, but protested that it had only been toast and coffee. I heroically refrained from pointing out that that was because he wouldn’t bother to eat anything else she fixed him.

After another awkward moment, I asked what he wanted, and he responded that he wanted hot cakes.

I looked at him blankly a moment. “Pancakes?” I said stupidly.

“Yeah!” He seemed pretty into the idea.

“I don’t know how to make pancakes.” I said. Some part of my brain had kicked in enough to not bother to explain that since I can’t eat them I don’t bother to know how to cook them. “I can make you oatmeal…”

He muttered something, and then just stood there. (I think he said something about wanting toast and coffee too. I pretended not to hear that part.) I think we stood there for a full minute before I opened my mouth and said the only thing that came to mind: “my clothes live in the other room, so you need to go away so I can go change.”

He muttered something else I didn’t catch, but then went away.

Monacita came out of the shower, and seemed pretty irritated by the whole thing.

I wandered in, brain dead, to try and figure out how to make oatmeal. Turns out it’s pretty easy, even if it doesn’t come in a packet.

When I took him the bowl, he even seemed grateful. And Joy was a dear as always. I didn’t think much more about it until Araceli came home for lunch, and apologized about the whole thing.

And informed me that he didn’t eat any of it.

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Author: VSC
• Thursday, May 12th, 2005

Ricky: there was an “incident”

Therapist: still an idiot.

Interview: Full background check: Monday. Kitty Litter interview: Tuesday.

More details when I’m not rushing to accomodate Flower Britches, the scheduling impaired.

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• Tuesday, May 10th, 2005

Follow Ups

Still broke.

Still unemployed.

Still haven’t been asked to feed the Tardos. (I think I forgot to postdate the last post… I wrote it to a text file a couple days ago and just finally got around to posting it.)

Irritation

(Yes. Straight women, straight men, gay men. Gay women? Who gives a fuck. Even in socially unacceptable subcultures you’re better off being male.)

Lack of a Morning Kiss

Monacita was grumpy this morning, and when she went to leave, I asked her to put the dogs out. (We took them for a walk yesterday, and Polly was all riled up because she wanted to go again. Which we can. Just not when I’m still trying to sleep.) She put the dogs out, then left, without ever giving me a good bye kiss. I don’t think she was upset or anything, just gumpy and preoccupied. When I realized she’d left without coming back in, I made a dash for the front door, but by the time I’d gotten there, she was already down the driveway, turning onto the street. I don’t think she saw me.

I tried to call her, but then I heard her cell phone ringing in the other room.

This isn’t a big deal, but it left me all out of sorts and a tad grumpy.

Well, apparently it was a big enough deal for me to comment on it.

Eventually, I went back to bed.

It helped.

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