My current job seeking routine includes weekly calls to the temp agencies I’m hoping to work with. Aerotek gets its call on Friday, and Kelly gets its call on Thursday. Live people answer the phone at Kelly Scientific, so while I may not be able to speak with my Assigned Kelly Representative (TM), I am at least able to speak with a human being so that I know that the office is still in existence, and hasn’t blown up over the last week or so. (It could happen..) The guys at Aerotek gave me direct numbers, so all I ever get is their voice mail. Neither of them has EVER actually answered his phone when I call them. I never did hear from Aerotek on Friday, and Kelly still hadn’t gotten back to me about the kitty litter job, so I spent the weekend being sad because one job hadn’t panned out, and my other temp company had probably blown up.
But alas, it was not to be. While I still haven’t heard about the Kitty Litter position, I did finally hear from Aerotek. They don’t have anything to throw my resume at right now. *sigh*
I wasn’t pleased by hearing this for obvious reasons. It’s hard to get a job when there’s nothing for them to send a resume to.
And as I sat there, a bit of Zen philosophy came to me; Freedom is found in the absence of desire. Desire leads only to pain and suffering. Or maybe that’s a Yoda-ism. I do know that the heart of Zen practice is the art of non-attachment, something I do not excel at. But maybe it’s time to learn. Because every bit of news about a possible job or lack there-of throws me on an emotional roller coaster ride.
When Monacita came home, I told her about my Zen philosophy. She watched me with an odd look on her face. When I stopped explaining, she continued to stare at me for a minute then said, “I’m sorry.”
I looked at her for a moment.
She followed up with, “Obviously I’ve left you to spend WAY too much time at home lately.”
Zen philosophy? No, thanks….